Hi June!

I haven’t seen you in a few days.

Where are you now? — I am still waiting for a reply from the message.

Are you so hate me? — So away from me.

The beginning of month has made my body fall down. my face is always sad when I went into the class. All my friends knew it. Thanks our friends who has supported me, without you all maybe I will be lost the direction. The attendance of you all will keep to be waited for me, even though it will not treat my feeling.

That day was dark outside. Maybe the weather makes it that way, but other factors can also give a big influence; head content. Too many things going around in my head. I should not join with my friends to go to next town and should accept her request for having diner. My mind was in so much turmoil at that time.

I felt like a failure. I will only pass one message if she reads this;

“I am sorry, hope I can help you and more responsive as much as I am able to the following day.”

Do you remember this picture? Yeah, this picture is sent by me when is lost and more choose my friend than she; it is my stupid thinking. Taken when I and my friend walk in the morning. My friend said that there were many beautiful flowers; while pointing it. Those all were wrong, I did not find flower there at all. Only one flower was founded by me, that flower only existed and laid down in the room.

“Mr. Sapardi”, a name is often mentioned by me for her. He is a famous poet. The artworks are still enjoyable the young people or millennial generation now. A truth what he brought, the raining in June. Now, I am an actor from what he wrote. It will soon happen, a rumor she will leave this small town for an entire month. Hope we will still able to communicate. But she said that she rarely connected with anyone by calling. I dunno, are those all only her reason or something really her own life? Not at all, I should understand it that I always disturb her. I’m too selfish.

So, what do I have to do? please let me know so we are able to keep communicating :’)

I always try for visiting my friend’s boarding house that besides her boarding house every time for trying become more responsive. Hope I can see her directly, but those all did not happen at all. Nothing that I look for except her.

Until now I have not met her at all. Please, don’t go out from my life! My full moon is almost completely full.

It seems when I felt sick a few days ago, but I don’t know what make me sick. Not medicine is needed by me, but her presence is medicine for me. Honestly, It is really hard write about this. In fact, I don’t know where to start and how to end this writing. At present, I only want to say to her that I miss her I really want to meet her now. I should say it to her directly than write here. I am a loser!

Hopefully we are meant to be.